To Haveyah

Journal Entry #1

I will never see her again; I've never been so sure of anything in my life. Perhaps, in a week or a month, she won't seem as special, but I'll never forget the way she made me feel. She made me feel real, like a person who could be loved, yet also worthless. What I strive to remember, and what I need to remember, is that moment of thinking about her, when I could envision myself letting go of all the unnecessary toxic patterns I've held my whole life. This ensures that my lover, my best friend, my spiritual elixir feels loved, appreciated, and exists. So, for her, I am someone she can love without apprehensions. In a period of loneliness and solitude, that's the most beautiful reminiscence I could ask for. So, for the first time, thank you [name]. I am grateful that we met and that I could feel you, even just for a brief amount of time. Don't, for a moment, think that I'm hurting. Don't assume that I'm sad. I hold you in my heart. You gave me something I'll never forget or lose on my journey toward self-love and gratitude.